3 Years Later

Holy shit. What a post before this one. If I only knew what was lying ahead of me then, bless my naive soul, I would have run away and NEVER returned. So here we are. 3 years and then some... a lot has changed. A lot has happened. A lot is going to happen. As a 26 year old, I feel like I have been through so much, yet I haven't been through much at all at the same time, if that makes any sense. Everyone fights different battles, I shouldn't be one to make judgments on who has been through more or less. I guess I'm just trying to say some people I know have been through and have it worse than I do, so why the fuck should I complain? I'm moving to Colorado in 10 days. There are currently some problems with my car (finance assholes say I can't take it out of state or some shit?) so I'm in a road block but, I still plan on going regardless of the outcome. I'm not sure when the next time will be for me to visit this blog. I forgot it existed in the first place. 26 year old me. Single. Reddish-brown hair. Currently sitting in bed, writing to nobody in particular. Scared as fuck for the future but ready to get the fuck out of Texas, one way or the other.

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